What Does God Have To Kill In Your Life? | The Road To Restoration (Part 1)

As I laid in bed one night I was contemplating how I would overcome the newest life struggle. You know, that emotional hurdle you have to conquer which manifests as a result of your current life situation(s). I had read scripture, I had prayed, and I had taken unsuccessful efforts of distancing myself from the circumstance…. I then remembered the New Testament scripture in which Jesus said that some things only come through prayer AND fasting. This was in response to an inquiry the disciples asked as to why they were unable to cast a demon out of a boy (Mark 9:29). Bingo I thought, I need to fast! I then heard in my spirit, the David fast.

It was late at night and my eyes were weary, but I decided to Google the David fast. However, my feed was only populated with the Daniel fast, its supplementary guidelines, and supporting scriptures. There was only one single link for the David fast and it was to a YouTube video. I clicked on the link and watched the three-minute video that was presented.

I don’t remember much of the video but the scriptural reference led me to 2 Samuel 12. The scriptures I focused on were verses 13 – 24. In this chapter the prophet, Nathan rebukes David for sending the soldier Uriah to battle so he can be killed and David can have Uriah’s wife Bathsheba.

How cold-blooded is that?!!

Nathan said to David in verse 13 that he had sinned against God, but God has, thankfully, forgiven your sin. He could take your life for what you did, but He won’t. Oh, btw, I forgot to mention that David had conceived a child with Bathsheba in the midst of all this. Nathan goes on to say that because he had utter disregard for the Lord, God would take the life of his baby son (verse 14).

STICK WITH ME I’M GETTING TO A POINT…

After Nathan left, God caused an illness to come upon the child. When this happened David was despondent. He didn’t just shed a tear or two, he mourned and pleaded with God to spare his son. He laid on the floor in a state of desperation and entered into a complete fast (no food, no water).

These were elders and I am of the opinion that they would not purposely give unwise counsel. Why would you tell someone to stop fasting… Could it be because the fast was not ordained by God? Could it be because the fast was fruitless??? Could it be that this situation was not applicable for a Mark 9:29??

I KNOW, that many of us have been in a state of emotional pain where we end up on the floor, curled up in a corner bawling our eyes. Whether it’s due to a loss of a loved one, a relationship, a spiritual attack, financial troubles, etc.

So yes, David was on the floor literally. It was to the point where the elders tried to get him to stop the fast and come dine with them (verse 17). I thought that was very interesting. Why? These were elders and I am of the opinion that they would not purposely give unwise counsel. Why would you tell someone to stop fasting…

HERE COMES MY FIRST POINT…

Could it be because the fast was not ordained by God? Could it be because the fast was fruitless??? Could it be that this situation was not applicable for a Mark 9:29??

Let me fast forward, the child dies. Which was obviously the will of God for the circumstance. So was David’s fast for naught?? Prior to really analyzing this text I would have said no.

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However, what if fasting is not the solution in your situation. What if accepting what God says from the onset is the answer? I mean David had it good. He got a direct word from God’s prophet. It isn’t like many of us who are questioning whether the voice we are hearing in our head is the Holy Spirit, our inner voice, or our alter ego.

Nevertheless, being persistent in persuading God, he “hit the floor”. Some of us were there too, trying to persuade God to agree with what we want and to make a way so we can get what we want.

What happens when something we really want, we desire greatly dies in its infancy (like David’s child)?

I was at a stage where I was seeking God for something to work out in my situation. However, what I wanted seemed to be going down the drain and it not too long started. I didn’t have adequate time to enjoy it. It was still in its infancy! I wanted it for me, but from reading and meditating on this passage and from the war that was going on in my spirit, I realized it was time to… let goooo…

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Honestly, I’ve come to the point where I don’t really trust my decision making totally and I have to invest more time in seeking God. Even for what I may feel are the simplest decisions and even when it feels SO RIGHT.

God is a loving Father and often times when we feel like God is being unfair when He asks us to let go, but He has a greater plan.

Well, I got up to about verse 19 and I want to expound up to verse 24. However, I’m going to leave it here for now.

So what do needs to die in your life?

Stay tuned for Part 2.

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